An Enlightening Day

Yesterday didn't start out that great but it unrolled in ways I never could have predicted. I got up early so I could go to stand watch at 5 am which is never fun. On my way into work I spoke with God about my life and the direction that it is going. As I prayed for guidance as to which path I should take I decided to allow my prayers to be guided by God. This turned out to be interesting and more fruitful than I imagined possible. It is a little wierd to do this, to open myself up like that. I found that I stopped praying for guidance and felt that the answer to that question had already been given, and instead had started praying for my relationship with my family. I prayed that my children would be healthy, happy and creative individuals and that Holly and I would have the wisdom to raise them right. I also found that I was telling myself that I needed to eliminate video games from my life for now. This is not going to be easy, but I know that it is because I was allowing them to take my attention away from my wife and my family. So for now until I feel that the situation has changed they are all going into the closet. The final thing that I found the need to ask for was that He would guide me toward understanding the true nature of God. I will be writing blogs more on this in the future, but He has already begun to show me His nature. Then I got to work and discovered that I had gotten up early apparently just for the time with God because I didn't have to be at work until 1pm. So the rest of the day unrolled as you might imagine. I went home, slept in, woke up, went to work and eventually came home. So last night Holly and I were talking, it got really late but I was thinking about what I had prayed about in the morning. I remembered thinking about how I never talk to Holly about spiritual matters despite the fact that they are important to me. It occured to me how ridiculous that is. So I broached the subject. As it turns out, she still loves me and in fact I feel that after our talk last night we have never been closer. I was able to say some things that put Holly's mind at ease, even though I had no idea she was stressing about them. We communicated on a level that we never had before and it was amazing. I feel that our relationship has improved so much more in one night than I ever would have thought possible. All of this was because I woke up earlier than I needed to and spent an extra hour alone with God.